Puddles

Well yesterday was a interesting day.  My dad, sister and I went to Olema to get my mom her favorite lotion.  Then we went through a lot of puddles which was a lot of fun.  We came home and it was okay.  I was  playing a game and I said freak and my mom got all mad at me and told me to never say that word again.  I was like are you kidding me.  I don't curse and now I can't even say freakin or freak.  Is she trying to ruin my life?  I can't wait to leave this house hold. 

My Eye

Well this morning my little sister hit my eye and it really hurt.  She said that it was an acciedent but I can guarentee that it wasn't.  Soon I will have to go to the gym for a little while so that will be fun.  I will put more at the end of the day. 

No Secret Santa Gift

That awkward moment where everyone around is getting gifts from their secret santa but me.  That was the middle of my day.  In my class we did a secret santa and everyone got a gift but me and I felt like I was invisible.  Just like the girl in the middle.  My heart was broken and I just wanted to cry.  Why didn't anyone get my name or get me a gift and give it to me.  I mean I got my person a gift and gave it to her.  It was just so horrible.  Now I am really sad and ate a whole box of mac and cheese.  I finished all of my finals for this semester, so that is all. 

Finals Week

So it's the week of the finals for this semester.  I have my two hardest tests on Wednesday and my easiest on Thursday.  I have to do a stupid non-profit project and think I hate the project because my group has a person in it that I want to kill.  He is such a pain and he wants eveyone to do the thing that he wants but I want to do something else.  So this project is so so stupid.  I just want it to be over already.  I went to my best friend's house to study for physio final and it was the best time I have had in months.  Now I am really bored

Long Night/ Week

Well its been a long week.  I had halloween on wednesday and it was raining.  I went trick or treating with my family but I was feeling bad because my friend wasn't with me.  This whole week I have been feeling kind of lonely because I haven't seen my friend for awhile now.  Last night I was emceeing for the ComAcad political ad showing and it went great.  I was also giving out the tickets and guess what Dwight was there.  He was there because of Amy.  I hate my life, it made me sick to my stomach to see them together.  Then once the show started Miles and a few of his friends came and I was thinking great.  The 2 guys that I have a big crush on were there.  My world was turned upside down.  Now I am really bored and lonely and my family stinks.  I am probably going to do my english homework which is just reading and it's not even due until tuesday. 

Long Night

Well last night I was babysitting 2 boys and I think that it went really well.  I had so much fun with them.  We played a whole bunch of games and I read to them at bed time.  It took them a little while to go to sleep but once they did, I knew that I just did great babysitting.  Today I went to the Bon Air trick or treating with my sister and mom and that was fun.  I got some candy.  But soon I have to go to stupid open gym again for basketball.  I am pretty sure that the coach doesn't like me and I won't be on the team. 

Worst Saturday of My Life

This morning I had to take the PSAT.  It was so boring and so early in the morning, especailly because it's a saturday.  When I was done, I had to take the bus home which was stupid.  I waited for an hour and I had to go pee really badly.  It was horrible.  Then I got home and was really hungry and my mom made a stupid lunch.  She asked me what I needed for my halloween costume and I told her and she asked what kind of vampire has purple hair.  But I was going to be a Hot vampire, like from my babysitter's a vampire.  I also told my mom how I was trying to get more babysitting and she shot that idea right in the head.  She said why would you do that.  I said because I wanted to save up money and have a job like most high schoolers.  I need the money.  My mom is such a buzz-kill.  Soon I will have to go to stupid open gym for basketball.  I really don't want to play but my stupid mom keeps making me.  I porbably won't even make the team because I am so slow compared to all the other girls. 

Happiest Weekend of My Life

So the best weekend of my life is over.  I went camping at Samuel P. Taylor Park with my family and cousins and it was great.  We had smores at the night and we had delicious dinner and breakfasts.  Everyone was so happy, my mom and dad weren't fighting and my sister was so sweet and amazing.  Then I had to come home yesterday and my parents started to fight and my sister was acting out again.  What happened to everyone?  They were so perfect during the weekend and then when we got home they weren't.  I sat in my room wanting to go back to the beginning of the weekend and wanting it to last forever.  Now it's another stupid week in school.  I have so much homework and I have a project soon due and the rough stuff is due thursday.  My group had nothing and we are going to shoot tomorrow and now my mom is really mad at me because I am going to have to miss basketball open gym because I feel like school is more important if I want to get good grades.  Honestly I just want to go back to that happy weekend and then I feel like everything would be some much better. 

New phone

Well I am back to school after I have been sick for a whole week.   I have some much homework that I have to do.  It was a boring day today but then my mom and sister picked me up from school and guess what I got my iphone.  Yeah me.  I love it so much, it's only a 8 gb though.  I wish that it was a 16 but this is what I get and I am very happy with it.  It's my new baby.  I just texted my friend on my phone, it was so much fun.  My life is now complete.  So overall it was a good day and I am really bored and don't want to do homework. 

Sick Week

So I have been sick for a week now.  I still have a cough and my ears hurt, I have been sleeping and doing absolutly nothing.  On wednesday and thursday my family and I watched the X factor and it's bootcamp time.  It was hilarious and amazing.  I have some homework that I have to do that I missed from the week of school.  Tomorrow is my brother's 18th birthday and tonight we are doing a family dinner and we are going to the mall and I am buying him a video game that he really wants.  Well I should go now and make my brother his birthday card.  Okay my mom is a stupid ass, I wanted to go with my sister and dad to the mall to get my brother's birthday gift but then she said that I couldn't unless I went to go to basketball later.  I was like fine I will stay home and go crazy then because I have been home for a whole week and haven't gone outside for awhile.  Also I feel like if I went to basketball than I would get the whole team sick and that wouldn't be cool of me.  I am really hating my mom right now, she is trying to help me not feel stess next week because of the comacad project and my group is really behind.  But honestly I don't really care about this project it's not striking my interest.  So I shook my head no and now she and my brother are gone and I am all alone at home by myself.  I'm hungry. 

Realization Time

Realization time, things that I realized were stupid and tv shows that I love watching have good points in them.  At school it was a super boring day, I had to do my science homework which I haven't finished and then I got spanish homework and I have math and comacad too.  So much homeowork and it's all due monday.  Plus I have to do the high school exit exam english again because I didn't pass it last year and that's on tuesday.  So I was watching The Middle at lunch and tutorial and it was about how Axl had to do summer school because he failed english and Brick had a tomato plant that he grew.  Then there was Sue, she was the invisible one and nobody knew that she was gone when she was helping her family get Axl's paper back.  I realized that it seems that I always get the ends of things and that nobody notices me.  I feel just like Sue.  So my sister has a little cold and she got to stay home because of her ashma.  What the fuck?  I was coughing out a lung from the beginning of school for like 3 weeks and I didn't get to stay home.  I got myself up and ready for school everyday.  So the baby gets to stay home and I don't.  That is some favoritisom right there.  Same with my brother,  he has a smartphone and my mom seems to care about him more.  I mean really.  I have had the same stupid crappy phone for 3 years and I am due for an upgrade but haven't gotten it yet.  My mom says that she will get me an iphone but I haven't seen it happen yet.  Now it's the weekend and I have so much fucking homework and I don't think I will do basketball this weekend, it just seems like to much for me to do. 

Horrible Day

It okay day at school.  My AW teacher didn't really help me on my paper that is due friday but I did get 2 extra credit stamps in spanish, so that was good.  I am finished with the paper but my mom is going to edit it for me and then she will send it back.  I saw the guy that I really like at the end of the school day and he didn't even say hi to me.  Then once I got onto facebook I realized that he is in a fucking relationship with a girl with blonde hair.  What the hell?  I thought that my best friend was right, that me and him would end up together and have kids and be happy.  Well last year I tried to ask him out but then he said that he just wanted to hangout with his guy friends and he didn't want to deal with the drama.  Now he is back in a relationship with a blonde bitch from Redwood.  I just looked at facebook again, which was a bad idea because I saw that another guy that I really like is in a relationship too.  He is in one with a girl who is in comacad with me and she rides horses.  Why is this happening to me?  It seems like all the guys that I like are being in relationships.  I am going to die old by myself with many dogs.  My mom was going to help me when she go home but now she is going to make dinner and then take my brother to best buy to get his phone working again.  I guess that the child in the middle is the invisible one.  They always seem to get the end of something.  I wish that somehow I wasn't invisible at school and that guys liked me and maybe it could be the Awkward show and I would be Jenna and one of the guys would be Matty and the other one Jake. 

Pain

Well yesterday was okay.  I had a really long day at school and I thought that it would never end.  I had science first with one of the guys that I like and all I could do was look at his gorgoues blonde hair.  Also because he sits in front on me.  Then I had math and that was really boring, I really don't like math.  Last I had comacad and I worked on my day in a life video and I never finished it but hopefully I can finish it tomorrow in class even though it's due.  Then I came home and I was really grumpy because I didn't want to go to basketball pre-season.  But my mom wanted me to go, so I did and it was the hardest hour and a half in my life.  Now I am in a lot of pain and last night I had a really bad muscle cramp.  I seem to only get those when I am doing basketball. 

date September 25, 2012

HOT guy/ iphone

So this day was interesting.  I went to lunch with my mom because I had no school.  We went to a sweet little italian resturant in Novato and then we went to the DMV.  I had to do my permit test again and guess what freakin' happened.  I failed it again but by one this time.  I swear this test hates me or something.  The only good thing that happened was that after that me and my mom went to starbucks and a got a mocha frap.  Then we went to Big 5, so that I could get basketball shoes for the first open gym tomorrow.  At Big 5, the person that was helping us was this really HOT guy.  He had blonde hair and he was super sweet and helpful.  He reminded me of Jake Rosati from Awkward.  But his name was Tim.  After we got the shoes, my mom told me that she was going to get me an iphone but it wasn't going to be the new one but that's okay to me because if I get an iphone that is awesome to me.  I was so happy that made my day so much better.  I realized when bad things happen that maybe right after, a good thing will come along and for me that's what happened today.   So overall it was a good day.  But tomorrow I have school again.  Pooooooooooo........

Gift

Well I was really upset for part of the day because it's that time of the month.  My sister was asking me why I was crying and I told her it was because of life but then she said no crying in this house because we are a happy family.  I was like are you kidding because my family is not a happy one.  So when I was home, I went out on my bike to barnes and noble and big 5.  Once my mom, dad and sister met me, I felt so much better.  I think all I needed was time to myself, like my therapist said.  I bought myself some smencils and even though my sister wanted some too, I did get her any.  I feel a lot better now then I did earlier today. 

FRIDAY

Well it was a good day at school.  I did the retake for my math test which was the first thing that I did this morning.  I think that I did a whole lot better than the first time.  Geometry doesn't stick in my head.  I had spanish after and all we did was Finding Nemo which was really fun because we had a subtute teacher.  The movie wasn't even in spanish it had spanish subtitles.  We had to draw what was happening in the movie.  The last class of my day was government which we just went to the lab and were working on our papers which are due next friday.  When I got home I started to watch TV and then my best friend Angie came over for a little bit and we watched our favorite show, AWKWARD.  It was the finale of season 2 which means we will have to wait awhile until the 3rd season will be showing.  My sister, mom and I went to the store to get a movie and to get breakfast items.  My sister wanted to sit in the front seat on the way to the store, so she did.  But then she wanted to sit in the front again on the way home but I was going to sit there.  My therapist that is at school said that I have to find time to make myself happy and put myself first and then other people.  So I was going to sit in the front but then I gave it to my sister and made her happy.  How am I supposed to do that when I have a younger sister who gets what she wants.  Or else she will throw a fit.   My mom and dad are fighting again but it's only a little stupid thing.  Also my sister was being rude to me because I was using her pillow but she has 2 and I only have 1.   Once again I feel like I have no voice or if I do where is it?  When I spend time with my friend, I feel happy but when I am by myself at school, looking at all the happy couples and all the people who have friends to talk to.  I feel invisible. 

Wednesday

This morning was freakin' weird there was a cop at my usual bus stop area, so then I rode my bike all the way to school.  It was really hard but I got there  at the same time as if I took the bus.  When I was at school, it was a really boring day.  I watched beverly hills nannies in advisory because I had no homework to do.   I saw Miles Phillips there, he was taking a U.S. history test for Grifo.  Miles is a hot guy.  He used to be in ROCK with me and he would always say hi to me or start talking to me, but now he doesn't even say hi and he is in my math class too.  I saw Noah who I have know since we were in the first grade.  He walked passed me and I was about to faunt.  Tomorrow is thursaday which means one more day closer to the weekend. 

Day to Day

I got an awesome grade on my physio quiz.  It was a B+.  Best I have ever done in science class.  The beginning of my day was great but the end got really boring and I just wanted to go home.  My sister keeps saying "Your welcome" after she says something rude.  She being the same way that Sadie is on Awkward and I don't think that is a good thing for my sister to be.  Because the person who plays Sadie is such a bitch.  I can't wait for the new Awkward episode. 

Another Day

Well today was another day.  I freakin' failed my math test, D+.  Why doesn't geometry stick in my head, I know how to do algebra really well.  I had to do test corrections and it was really hard for me because I didn't want to do them but my AW teacher made me do them.  My comacad classes were really boring and I didn't do anything.  All I could think about was the guy that I like and if maybe there was a future with him or not.  I look at every couple that is happy and I think about having a relationship and how better my life would be because then  I would have someone to share it with and I wouldn't have to be so lonely.   Also writing helps me a lot too. I can't wait until friday because then I can watch the new Awkward and see if Jenna picks Matty or Jake.  It's only monday night which means I still have 4 more days of school till my 3 day weekend.  Oh yeah. 

It's Sunday

Okay, so my mom keeps telling me that I have to lose weight some how and if I don't do it by myself then she will enroll me into some class.  Is what she said.  I rode my bike today and yesterday with her and my sister.  What else ddoes she want me do.  My sister and I got our rats toe nails trimmed and then we came home, she dropped the ball and one of her rats fingers got stuck in the ball and then my dad had to get it out.  Diamond was sreaming for her life, my sister feels very guilty after things happen to her rat.  Now I feel a little bit sick because I have watery eyes and a stuffy nose.  Tomorrow I have school again.  Poooooooooooooo

Long Week

Well school life has been boring/stressful as usual.  I had a geometry test this past thursday and it was really hard on 2 of the pages but the other ones were fine because it was review from last year and vocabulary.  I hate math.  I also had a physio quiz and I think that went pretty well.  At school yesterday there was a basketball meeting and now I really want to play because the varsity coach is a dad of one of the seniors who are playing.  I want to play so bad.  I just watched the newest episode of Awkward and it was amazing.  Kind of confusing at first but then I got it.  I am so excited for the new episodes, I hope that Jenna chooses Matty for her true love.  Team Matty all the way.  I took a long bike ride with my mom and sister and it was good, I got a really bad wedgey from my seat and my knees hurt now too.  

Scandia Day

Today my sister, dad and I went to Scandia.  We went on the go-karts, bumper boats and we played aracade games.  Also we played mini golf.  There was a really cute guy that my sister met because he had a baby lizard on him and she was really insterested with the lizard.  But the guy was super cute and I was hopeing that my sister was going to ask him what he's name was but she never did.  I depend on my social sister to ask cute guys names.  All around today was a pretty good day.  Also it's already September where has the days gone. 

date September 2, 2012

Horror

Okay last night I was watching my little sister for an hour and everything was good until..... she started to kick my arm because it was in her pillow way.  I didn't get why she was doing it.  Then after a while she was pinching and then she bit my knuckles.  I swear there was something wrong with her last night and now my arm is bruised in the inside and it hurts to touch.  Now it's the weekend and it's a three day one, so I am very glad about that.  It's been a long week at school. 

date August 30, 2012

Filming

Today I had to ride my bike home and I got my science textbook and my math book.  It was super heavy and now I am in a lot of pain.  But school was really good.  My group did most of outr shooting for our commerical.  The 2 actors are really good.  They both have nerdy glass and one who is the guy is my friends boyfriend.  He looks super cute with nerdy glass.  And tomorrow my group has to finish with the shooting and then we are going to edit it.  Oh yeah.  So all around it was a pretty good day.  There is one guy that I like and I haven't seen him at school.  He even said see you at school.  But where is he? 

date August 28, 2012

No Game/ Little Brat

 So yesterday I had tickets to the Giants game and my mom and dad said that we weren't going because the ferry tickets to the staduim was to much.  I was really looking forward to going to the game because it was the only thing that I was going to do this weekend that was going to be fun.  Well my stupid sister woke me up today and told me that I had to clean the rat cage with her.  It was only 9:15 am and for the last 3 days I have been getting up at 6:30 am to go to school.  So I was hoping to sleep in this morning but I guess with my family that is not possible.  My mom made me make breakfast which was really good because I am an amazing cook.  I am still not happy with my sister.  Now I have to go to do physiology homework.

date August 25, 2012

Day 2

Well I was this close to getting a ride this morning from my dad but then my mom said that I should ride my bike.  But instead I took the bus to the hub and then rode from there.  My mom is such a bitch. My dad is such an awesome person.  But at school, today was another good day at the beginning and then it got really boring.  I only had a chewy bar for lunch and so by the end of 6th period I got really hungry but I had some gum in my backpack so I had a piece.  Then I had to ride my bike back home and I was super hungry by then and I texted my dad and he said that he would save me a corn dog but when I got home my stupid ass sister ate it.  I broke down in tears from hunger and ate her cookie that I had brought her from school yesterday.  She is such a brat.  Now I have to do my math homework which is not that hard.  For now. 

date August 23, 2012

Junior Year

Well yesterday was my first day of junior year.  It was good because I have a guy that I really like in my science class and another guy that I like in my math class.  I don't really have anything else that I would have to say because it was just a good day for me. 

date August 22, 2012

STAR Testing

Well this freaking sucks, I did horrible on all of my STAR testing.  It's such a stupid tests, I hate this.  Also my mom is being annoying and so is my sister.  I need to get away from them.  School starts in 3 days and then I will be a junior.  Everyday doing homework and trying to work better and get better grades.  I think my life is depending on me getting good grades. 

LOVE

OMG, I was at the grocery store with my dad and sister and a guy that I like said hi to me.  Last year, he as in my math class but he never has said hi to me before and then he also said see you at school.  Which is starting on August 22.  I have known he since the first grade and my best friend always says that we will end up together.  He is such a sweet guy.  And now I can't get him out of my head.  What am I supposed to do?  My life just changed a lot.  I am almost a junior and maybe there is a boyfriend in my future.  Hopefully. 

date August 16, 2012

Crater Lake

Well today was an adventure of a life time.  My cousins, aunt, uncle and my family went to Crater Lake.  It's a big lake that was created by a big volcanic explosion and it was deep blue water in it.  My sister, mom, aunt, uncle and cousins jumped off a 20 feet rock into the water.  It was pretty cool.  If I wasn't scared of heights, I probably would have jumped off of it too. Then it was a super big hike when we had to come back to the cars.  When we got back home I made my famous spagetti and meatballs for dinner.  Everyone loved them.  Tonight is my last night and tomorrow we are going home to California. 

date August 11, 2012

Back in the Woods

Well we went back to the Lake in the Woods.  I had a great time.  My cousins and I played on the dock.  Then after a while I went on my aunt's wave runner, which was so much fun because my dad used to own one and I would go it with him when I was a young girl.  It was a blast.  I was really hoping to see Jeran again because he is so cute.  Then we came home and went to bed because it was so late. 

date August 10, 2012

Lake in the Woods

Well today was a fine day.  We went for a long walk in the morning and then we came back .  We had breakfast and then we went to Lake in the Woods to take a swim.  I was just floating in the water in a tube while my cousins and sister were playing on the floating dock.  They were playing a game with other kids called puching off the dock.  There was this guy that was playing with them and his name was Jeran.  He was so cute.  He reminded me of James from school.  After a while they were done playing on the dock and so I went on it and sat on it.  It was a lot of fun.  Then we came home and did a bonfire in the backyard.  We made smores and it was really good. 

date August 9, 2012

First Day

Now I am waiting for my aunt, brother and cousin to wake up and then we will have breakfast.  We had oat meal which was not good at all.  The we went to the bike shop for my brother and after dinner we went for a long walk.  Now my feet and my thighs hurt because I got a rash. 

date August 7, 2012

Pain

It hurts me to walk now.  I woke up to my sister telling me to wake up and I didn't sleep well at all.  My upper back hurts a lot.  My cousin Gabemade breakfastand it was omelette day.  But the worst thing was it had spinach in it and so it was hard to eat.  Then I took a shower and then brought Bear on a walk because I was asked. 

My mom, aunt, sister and I went to the paint your own pottery shop and we dropped off my brother and cousins to the skate park.  Then we cam home and had dinner.  It was ravioli and asparagus.  Now we are going to bed and my mom is reading to me and my sister. 

date August 8, 2012

Wake Up and Long Trip

Well I woke up today by the sun shining in my face.  It was a long trip to Oregon but when we finally made it at midnight I was super happy ti be here.  My aunt's house is so pretty and they have a dog.  Guess What? His name is Bear.  I think that is a great name for a dog.  They also have a bunny and his name is Bobby.

On the long road trip here, we picked up my brother at Fort Braggs, so meeting him took a few hours.  Then on the way up, my sister had to go pee every 5 minutes.  We stopped for lunch and dinner.  For lunch I had a burger and for dinner I had meatloaf, mashed potatoes and salad.  It was all good food.

date August 6, 2012

That Girl

A girl that used to be an only child for 5 years.  Now 16, has an older brother and younger sister and now is the middle child.  How things were easier when she was younger.  I am that girl, Blair Hinnenberg.  I live with my step mom and dad.  A lot of the time my llife sucks.  Like how I have to watch what I eat because I am overweight or how my sister and brother get what ever they want.   My real mom died a few years ago from a sudden heart attack.  Those years have been really tough.  Yes, I did graduate from middle school, but I am now a junior in high school.  So I don't know if I can survive 2 more years.
Since sophomore year I have had a big crush on a guy in my class.  His name is Dwight.  What a perfect name for a perfect guy.  Dwight was in my advisory class and so on his birthday I made him cupcakes and he liked them.  He doesn't talk to me, but I wish that he did.  Just a month ago my sleepover buddy/friend Emily, moved to New Jersey.  She didn't even say good-bye to me, she doesn't text me back.  I feel like she didn't even care about our friendship. 
Well, my junior year is going to start in a month.  Hope I will have advisory with Dwight again.  For the past 2 years I feel like I ahve been invisible at school during lunch because I eat by myself.  I mean I have friends just not close ones because they all went to Redwood.  Did I make a bad school choice? Would my life be better at Redwood? Well, I guess that I will have to wait and see. 
I started to make this blog because I got addicted to a show called Awkward.  It's about a girl and she likes this guy and then they go out for a little bit and then the girl gets a new boyfriend, but she still has feelings for the other guy.  The guys names are Matty and Jake and the girl with the problems is named Jenna.  date July 26, 2012

Packing

Well, today we are packing for our trip to Oregon to see our cousins and aunt and uncle.  Then we are leaving either late tonight or really early in the morning tomorrow.  I put my hair in a random style last night and I am going to ask my friend if she thinks that is a cute look or not.  I probably won't be able to make any more posts until I come back, unless my aunt has a computer that I can use during the night time.  I will write everyday in my book, so then I can post it later.  You know, the only thing that a teenager would want during the Summer would be a Summer romance.  I have had a few play in my head and maybe by the end of the Summer I will get one.  date August 5, 2012

Permit Test

Well, today I feel even more invisible . My mom dropped off my brother at the DMV to get his permit and guess what, he got it. Then my sister went to camp for the week. What am I doing? sitting on a bench writing this. My mom and dad are going to go get some lunch when they go get my sister and they didn’t even invite me. Tomorrow, me and my mom were supposed to go to Santa Rosa to get my birth certificate so that I can to the permit test and get my permit but now she is thinking that we might not go. How typical. I need to be able to drive. I am a 16-year-old girl with no drivers license. People who are in my grade have already been driving for a year and they have a license. So what the hell? can’t I be one of normal teenagers with a normal life. My mom tells me that I have been depressed over the past week and she is worried about me. It’s not my fault because right now I got my monthly gift, so I am just emotional. But other I think I just need my little buddy now. Me and my sister are getting rats soon because my sister killed our other one by accident. I can’t wait to have a new little buddy. My rat’s name is going to be Stella Bella because that is a really cute name for her. I don’t know how much longer I can wait for my buddy because every time that I help the one that we had before I felt so happy and right now I could use some happiness.  

date July 30th,2012

Oregon Trip

When I did the permit test a few days ago. Guess what? I freaking failed it and I was so sad. I couldn’t believe it. My hand was shaking the whole time I was taking it and I guess that my nerves got to me. Now I have to wait a week to take it again, hopefully I pass it. Sometimes do you wish you were a different person? Well I wish I was, somebody who could sing really well and very pretty. I am about to go to visit my cousins in Oregon for about a week but I don’t really want to because they are a little bit older then my sister and they are also boys. My sister is driving me crazy, I don’t know how much longer I can take this. My friend was going to come over today but she has to watch her brother and they couldn’t find his helmet and he doesn’t want to walk. So now I am really bored and I want to go on my trip today because the sooner we leave the sooner we come back and we can get our rats. I realized that animals like dogs, cats and small animals make me very happy otherwise I am sad and lonely. I feel like everything that I do for my mom, I am doing something wrong. She wanted me to take a bike ride and that’s what I did and she said that I have to have a open mind about exercise. Excuse me, I have been doing the gym with my best friend and did the bike ride like she told me too but I feel like she wants something more from me. Sometimes when she is talking to me, I just want to cry for no reason. Now she is complaining that my phone is going off every second. What is her problem? 

 date August 4, 2012

Middle

Well, I was really close to getting my mom’s iphone but now she is thinking about waiting 3 months and then changing over to At&t . Instead of verizon which I think is really stupid. Verizon has the much better coverage than At&t does. Also she is thinking about getting a landline again. The only thing that I have wanted since I have gotten into high school would be an iphone and I was so close and yet I am still so far. Why is this my life? I want something but it seems so far to get it. While the oldest and the youngest get what they want, the middle well she gets NOTHING. 

 date July 28th, 2012