A game of truth or dare

My beginning of the day was great I took a walk on Phoenix lake with my best friend and then we got to my house and watched Percy Jackson sea of monsters. Then we went to my room to play truth or dare on my friends phone and I got some of the worst dares ever. They were prank calling someone and I didn't want to do it but my friend wanted to do it and so she took my phone. She called a few people and then I hung the phone up so the the person won't know it was me.  The people called me back and I didn't want answer my phone and so I didn't.  Then one of the people call and it's a guy that I have a huge crush on and my little sister picked it up and talked to him.  Now my whole school/ social life is over and I don't know what to do.  

Glee

Sometimes when you feel like you are on top of the world and you feel that nothing can get in your way. You feel empowered and that there are no problems in your life. Well since yesterday which was christmas I haven't had such a great time.  I was going to hangout with my friend and we were going to go to lunch but then her dad picked her up before we could even do anything. It was stupid.  I feel like there is nothing good in my life anymore I can't hangout with friends and my dad seems to want to leave if we don't go to the mountains which is super uncool of him.  My sister got glee seasons for christmas and we have been watching it and it's really good. Every time I watch it it makes me feel like I want a high school experience like that where I can sing and be the popular one with the hot quarterback but in reality I am all alone and nobody that I like likes me back.  Now I just don't know what to do.  Also my mom keeps making me feel bad about myself and its always about food.  Like I am eating to much or eat slower.  Well that's all I have to say tonight.  Good night

Feelings

Everyone has feelings but some can easily get hurt then others.  I was looking for a picture of me as a baby for the yearbook and the one that I like my dad says that it's the worries picture he has ever seen.  Well screw him.  Maybe I want the picture because I miss my mom.  He is so stupid.  He hurt my feelings, unlike him someone who doesn't have feelings I do.  I also can cry really easily.  Now I am sitting in my bedroom listening to music and doing my homework on a Saturday night.  That's super.  I have no social life.  I just want to away from my family, live by myself or with my best friend. 

Hard Times

Time's are hard when it gets near the holidays.  The last time I saw my mom was the day after Christmas and I got to stay with her for the night.  Not knowing that it would be my last time ever.  I would have made the time that we spent together even more special than it already was.  When I heard that my mom had passed away I didn't want to believe it but now I know because she is in a jar.  I miss her so much.  She was my best friend and now I feel so alone because nothing since she passed has been good in my life.  I have a very dysfunctional family and my best friend won't even hangout with me anymore or call me because she is so into school.  Also my other friend left 2 years ago and moved to Florida.  She also never answers her phone.  I used to talk to my mom everyday on the phone and it made me feel like she really loved me.  I also got a card from her every month in the mail.  Now I am a senior in high school and my mom won't even get to see me graduate which makes me really sad.  She would be so proud of the young lady that I have become.  I am really disliking school right now.  I feel super stressed because I want to do my best but it's getting really hard.  I just want to be done.