A game of truth or dare

My beginning of the day was great I took a walk on Phoenix lake with my best friend and then we got to my house and watched Percy Jackson sea of monsters. Then we went to my room to play truth or dare on my friends phone and I got some of the worst dares ever. They were prank calling someone and I didn't want to do it but my friend wanted to do it and so she took my phone. She called a few people and then I hung the phone up so the the person won't know it was me.  The people called me back and I didn't want answer my phone and so I didn't.  Then one of the people call and it's a guy that I have a huge crush on and my little sister picked it up and talked to him.  Now my whole school/ social life is over and I don't know what to do.  

Glee

Sometimes when you feel like you are on top of the world and you feel that nothing can get in your way. You feel empowered and that there are no problems in your life. Well since yesterday which was christmas I haven't had such a great time.  I was going to hangout with my friend and we were going to go to lunch but then her dad picked her up before we could even do anything. It was stupid.  I feel like there is nothing good in my life anymore I can't hangout with friends and my dad seems to want to leave if we don't go to the mountains which is super uncool of him.  My sister got glee seasons for christmas and we have been watching it and it's really good. Every time I watch it it makes me feel like I want a high school experience like that where I can sing and be the popular one with the hot quarterback but in reality I am all alone and nobody that I like likes me back.  Now I just don't know what to do.  Also my mom keeps making me feel bad about myself and its always about food.  Like I am eating to much or eat slower.  Well that's all I have to say tonight.  Good night

Feelings

Everyone has feelings but some can easily get hurt then others.  I was looking for a picture of me as a baby for the yearbook and the one that I like my dad says that it's the worries picture he has ever seen.  Well screw him.  Maybe I want the picture because I miss my mom.  He is so stupid.  He hurt my feelings, unlike him someone who doesn't have feelings I do.  I also can cry really easily.  Now I am sitting in my bedroom listening to music and doing my homework on a Saturday night.  That's super.  I have no social life.  I just want to away from my family, live by myself or with my best friend. 

Hard Times

Time's are hard when it gets near the holidays.  The last time I saw my mom was the day after Christmas and I got to stay with her for the night.  Not knowing that it would be my last time ever.  I would have made the time that we spent together even more special than it already was.  When I heard that my mom had passed away I didn't want to believe it but now I know because she is in a jar.  I miss her so much.  She was my best friend and now I feel so alone because nothing since she passed has been good in my life.  I have a very dysfunctional family and my best friend won't even hangout with me anymore or call me because she is so into school.  Also my other friend left 2 years ago and moved to Florida.  She also never answers her phone.  I used to talk to my mom everyday on the phone and it made me feel like she really loved me.  I also got a card from her every month in the mail.  Now I am a senior in high school and my mom won't even get to see me graduate which makes me really sad.  She would be so proud of the young lady that I have become.  I am really disliking school right now.  I feel super stressed because I want to do my best but it's getting really hard.  I just want to be done.

Nothing Good Can Stay

You know when you think that everything in your life is perfect and then at a split moment that perfect life is gone.  Well I have had that life many times now, it just gets worst every time   The first time was when my mom died from a heart attack, then when my dad and step mom got a divorce and now it's happening again.  My step mom wants my dad to move out of our apartment, so he is going to live with his friend in Petaluma.  Which really sucks for me in every way. 

 

Also the nothing good can stay is that yesterday was the best day of my life so far this school year.  I am in bowling club at my school and we went bowling and it was super fun.  It was a great good of people and one of the best parts was that at the end of the game I got a turkey and won everyone.  Which felt really good, everyone was super supportive when people took their turns.  So I can't wait until next time that we go. 

 

So that is it for now, I will be back soon when I feel I need to share my feelings out 

Day Before Picture Day

Well tomorrow is picture day which means that school starts the next day.  I am so bored right now this is not a good way to end my summer as a junior.  Can't wait to get back to all my classes and have a normal schedule and doing homework because I have realized that I get really bored easily when I have no friends around or my mom and sister aren't here to bothering me to go do something.  Hopefully I will have at least one class with each one of my crushes because that would make my last year of high school so much better because after this I will not see them any more.  My hope is that I will be going to Moorpark College in LA because I really want to do the exotic animal training program there.  That is my number one spot I want to go otherwise I don't know what I would go or be doing.  My sister and mom went to cape cod for 10 days and will be back soon.  I have missed them very much, it's not the same without my annoying little sister but I still love and miss her. 

Grown Ups 2 and More

Yesterday was my mom's birthday and so I was feeling a little down but then my dad and sis and I
I went to see Grown Ups 2.  It was super silly and made my dad laugh a lot.  Today I am going
to the river or beach with my family.  This will be fun (cough) (cough).  If you look in the
dictionary for the word disfunicatal there would be a picture of my family right next to it. 

Sad Summer Vacation

So school starts next week and this has been the most lamest summer of my life.  I went to the beach a few times which were really fun and to the river but other than that it's been stupid.  I am going to be a senior which means going to college soon which will be super fun hopefully.  My mom and sister went to cape cod  for ten days and I am left with my dad.  I thought that it was going to be super fun with him but it's been super boring.  We do absolutely nothing.  I am so bored.  We are going to the mountains tomorrow but I don't want to go because it's just going to be more boring because there is no teenagers there and it's pretty much in the middle of no where. 

Awesome Week

I had an awesome week.  I hung out with my BFF one day and we went swimming and played
video games.  I also went to a fourth of July party and that was really fun, there was a teen there
that had worn the same colored clothes as I did.  It was kind of weird but he was kind of cute
at the same time.  Then I went to the Marin County Fair and I won a lot of prizes and went on
a lot of rides.  I also saw Zendaya from Shake it Up in concert and that was amazing so much
fun.  On Saturday my family went to Pacifica to say goodbye to some friends because they are
moving soon.  And today I saw Desicapable Me 2 with my sister and dad.  It was a really cute
movie and I would defiantly see it again. 

Awesome Weekend

So my weekend was amazing.  My dad, sister and I went to the Big Time Rush summer tour concert
in Concord and it was so cool.  They were just pure awesome.  Big Time Rush are so cute. 

Father's Day

It's summer time.  Last days of school were great because they were super easy finals compared to
the beginning of the week.  Today is Father's Day and I made my dad breakfast and it was his
favorite meal but he didn't like it that much because it was a wedmd recipe.  I thought it was not
good also.  We are probably going to go camping this beginning of the week and then I am going
try to hangout with my friends before they go off to do their own family trips. 

R5 concert and more

So my weekend was so amazing and awesome.  The R5 concert was the best concert that I have been to.  Also I got to see Guy Feiri who is on foodnetwork and I watch his show all the time.  Ross was so cute, he sung like an angel.  He did all my favorite songs and at the end of the concert all of R5 did a signing.  So I got to meet them up close.  It was pure awesomeness.  I also got really sick and was home yesterday from school and I went today.  Now I have a lot of homework but I feel really lite headed because I have had 2 bloodynoses today.  One this morning and one just an hour ago.  I also have a headache.  Hopefully tomorrow will be better than today was.  Over the weekend I have a dream about a guy that I have a crush on from my school and it was we were swimming.  Then he came into my house and we started to kiss and then my mom kicked him out.  Then I woke up and that was the end of a really good dream.  Now I should go back to doing my homework. 

Long Week

This week has been long.  I have had a math quiz which I did horrible on and today I had a physio test which I think I did really well.  I also had a econ test which I didn't do well on either.  Well tomorrow is friday which is great because I need a weekend, I am so done with the school year.  I have tryed to chat with my best friend but she has been busy and I have been kind of lonely.  I know that I haven't been here for a while but soon I will be here everynight during the summer.  Well now I have to go to sleep for the night.  Night

Softball Game

So I haven't been on here for a while.  My sister has been having softball during the weekends and I am one of the assistant coaches.  It's a lot of fun for me and I get to do something that I really love.  I watched a new episode of Awkward and it was awesome, I love that show.  It really shows the drama of high school.  I wish that my life was more interesting like Jenna's.  I have realized that I have no friends because my friend who is usually hangout during the weekend, she wasn't picking up her phone and answering her texts.  I feel so lonely.  Well this year is almost over and next year I will be a senior which means almost done with high school, then I get to go to college and get away from this crazy family of mine. 

Perfect to Not Perfect Day

This morning was a perfect morning and then the day just got worse and worse.  In the morning I had physio and we got our quizzess back and I got a B on it and I was really proud of myself.  I have never done well in science until now.  It felt great.  Then I had math which was fine, I looked at the person who I have a huge crush on.  Then it was getting to the end of the day and it was so boring.  After school I had to walk a dog and then my dad picked me up but told me that my stupid, retared mom wanted me to go to the gym so I did.  It was more boring.  I was going to give my brother some money for his textbook for school because my mom doesn't have money right now because my stupid sister has been sick and so my mom hasn't worked.  Then she just told me that I shouldn't, so she pretty much shot me straight down.  I really hate her right now.  I feel so depressed about my life.  Now I am bored and crying.

Pain the Return

I am in so much pain.  My wrist hurts and my ankles because I fell of my bike yesterday after workingout at the gym for 2 hours.  I told my mom and she told me to take a bath.  I hate my life because today I had to take out the trash even though my wrist is still hurt.  My best friend came over for a little bit that was really fun.  Well my chirstmas vacation is at an end and I really I am going to miss sleeping in.  Well only a year and a half and I am done with high school.  Also I got a 49 on my geometry final and I spent 3 hours on it.  I hate school especailly math.