where you belong

So last night I was watching the christmas episode of the fosters and every time I hear the theme song I think about my life.  It's been about a month since my step mom rd me that my dad wasn't really my dad.  That my mom was a few months pregnant with me before she met my dad.  At first I didn't know what to think because I have been lied to for 18 years.  Why would no body tell me the truth? I really want to know who my biological father is and what my heritage is because I have no clue.  So I have been thinking a lot about this topic.  I don't know what to do anymore.  Also I need to find a good job so I can save money for college because unlike people who have their parents paying I have to do it for myself.  And that my step brother is a trust fund baby because he had a old friend who died and now my brother has all this money for school and housing and food. And I am stuck here. It's not fair I am the one who has been working really hard in school my whole life. Why do I have no money for college and also I tried to get some scholarship money and I got none and this one girl in my class got all the ones that she applied for but I am sure that her parents could have paid for her college fund.  It's just not fair.